If all goes as planned, by this time next week, I will have become a father for the second time. Thus far, everything is on-target for the scheduled delivery, which is set to take place next Friday morning. For right now, the new baby remains tucked safely in the womb, while we put final touches on things here and get ready to go ”back to zero,” and start a new life once more – just as we did nearly three years ago when Addie was born. I should be excited, but this time it’s different.
I’m working more now than I have in the past couple of years, but with expenses going up, I’m worrying about money for the first time in a long time. There’s also a bunch of in-progress household projects that will be left unfinished for the time being, though annoying since I wanted them done pre-baby. For some reason, time feels so much shorter this time around, and baby aside – the days seem shorter this year – as if I’m constantly getting less and less done. The “balance” of being a work-from-home Dad feels disrupted, and its troubling.
I know that all will likely go completely smooth and be just fine… but as I’ve said before, having kids is a big deal, and I can’t see how there’s so many people out there that have multiple children – especially those that seem not to care.
It’s entirely possible that I’m over analyzing , but there’s a lot on my mind right now.
Everything will probably be fine, and I’ll have stressed for nothing.
But today? it was day two of a garage sale and I’m beat.
–James
I’m going to crank this up and listen to some TRANSFORMERS-themed hardcore courtesy of SHOCKWAVE… “Entering Final Countdown Phase…”
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